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Monday, January 3rd, 2011
8:59 pm	@@@@@ The face was as alien to me as the faceless @@@@@ The face was as alien to me as the faceless serpentine tentacles of my last host body would be to this new bodyI'd seen this kind of face in the images I had been given to prepare for this worldIt was hard to tell them apart, to see the tiny variations in color and shape that were the only markers of the individualSo much the same, all of themNoses centered in the middle of the sphere, eyes above and mouths below, ears around the sidesA collection of senses, all but touch, concentrated in one placeSkin over bones, hair growing on the crown and in strange furry lines above the eyesSome had more fur lower down on the jaw; those were always males The colors ranged through the brown scale from pale cream to a deep almost-blackAside from that, how to know one from the other? This face I would have known among millions This face was a hard rectangle, the shape of the bones strong under the skinIn color it was a light golden brownThe hair was just a few shades darker than the skin, except where flaxen streaks lightened it, and it covered only the head and the odd fur stripes above the eyesThe circular irises in the white eyeballs were darker than the hair but, like the hair, flecked with light There were small lines around the eyes, and her memories told me the lines were from smiling and squinting into sunlight I knew nothing of what passed for beauty among these strangers, and yet I knew that this face was beautifulI wanted to keep looking at itAs soon as I realized this, it disappeared Mine,spoke the alien thought that should not have existed Again, I was frozen, stunnedThere should have been no one here but meAnd yet this thought was so strong and so aware! ImpossibleHow was she still here? This was me now Mine,I rebuked her, the power and authority that belonged to me alone flowing through the word So why am I talking back to her?I wondered as the voices interrupted my thoughts (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 2nd, 2011
8:59 pm	@@@@@And there were drawings made by a certain @@@@@And there were drawings made by a certain child prodigy well over eighty years agoA little girl who'd fallen out of a pony-trap at the age of two and banged her head and awakened with seizures and a magical ability to drawI knew this even though the drawing on the first page wasn't a drawing at all - not really, but this: I flicked it upBeneath was this: After that, the pictures became pictures, growing in technique and sophistication with a speed that was beyond beliefUnless, that was, you happened to be a guy like Edgar Freemantle, who had done little more than doodle until an accident on a building site had taken his arm, crushed his skull, and nearly ended his life She had drawn fieldsA gigantic black face, round as a basketball, with a smiling 797 red mouth - probably Melda the housekeeper, although this Melda looked like an overgrown child in extreme close-upThen more animals - raccoons, a turtle, a deer, a bobcat - that were naturally sized, but walking on the Gulf or flying through the airI found a heron, executed in perfect detail, standing on the balcony railing of the house she had grown up inDirectly below it was another watercolor of the same bird, only this time it was hovering upside-down over the swimming poolThe gimlet eyes staring out of the picture were the same shade as the pool itselfShe was doing what I've been doing, I thought, and my skin began to creep againTrying to re-invent the ordinary, make it new by turning it into a dream Would Dario, Jimmy, and Alice cream their jeans if they saw these? I thought there was no doubt Here were two little girls - Tessie and Laura, surely - with great big pumpkin smiles that deliberately overran the edges of their faces Here was a Daddy bigger than the house beside which he stood - had to be the first Heron's Roost - smoking a cigar the size of a rocketA smokering circled the moon overhead 798 Here were two girls in dark green jumpers on a dirt road with schoolbooks balanced on their heads the way some African native girls balanced their pots: Maria and Hannah, no doubtBehind them came a line of frogsIn defiance of perspective, the frogs grew larger rather than smaller Next came Elizabeth's Smiling Horses phaseThere were a dozen or moreI leafed through them, then turned back to one and tapped it"This is the one that was in the newspaper article Wireman said, "Go a little de (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 1st, 2011
9:02 pm	@@@@@Arrogance is ego plus ignoranceI "What I @@@@@Arrogance is ego plus ignoranceI "What I know makes me moneyWhat I don't know loses me moneyEvery time I have been arrogant, I have lost moneyBecause when I'm arrogant, I truly believe that what I don't know is not important," rich dad would often tell me I have found that many people use arrogance to try to hide their own ignoranceIt often happens when I am discussing financial statements with accountants or even other investors They try to bluster their way through the discussionIt is clear to me that they don't know what they're talking aboutThey're not lying, but they are not telling the truth There are many people in the world of money, finances and investments who have absolutely no idea what they're talking aboutMost people in the money industry are just spouting off sales pitches like used-car salesmen When you know you are ignorant in a subject, start educating yourself by finding an expert in the field or find a book on the subject CHAPTER NINE Getting Started I wish I could say acquiring wealth was easy for me, but it wasn't So in response to the question "How do I start?" I offer the thought process I go through on a day-by-day basisIt really is easy to find great dealsIt's just like riding a bikeAfter a little wobbling, it's a piece of cakeBut when it comes to money, it's the determination to get through the wobbling that's a personal thing To find million-dollar "deals of a lifetime" requires us to call on our financial geniusI believe that each of us has a financial genius within usThe problem is, our financial genius lies asleep, waiting to be called uponIt lies asleep because our culture has educated us into believing that the love of money is the root of all evilIt has encouraged us to learn a profession so we can work for money, but failed to teach us how to have money work for usIt taught us not to worry about our financial future, our company or the government would take care of us when our working days are ove (Comment on this)
Friday, December 31st, 2010
9:03 pm	tiffany wholesale,chanel vintage,omega pocket... tiffany wholesale,chanel vintage,omega pocket watch,men wallet gucci,louis vuitton online@@@@@ Wyman had been panting heavily for the last twenty minutes of the march, and he lay quiet on his back, waiting for the spring to return to his legs "How're you feeling?" Roth asked Wyman shook his headThey would be continuing like this all day, and he knew with the experience he had gained tiffany wholesale on this patrol that he would not be able to make it"I'm going to lighten my pack," he told Roth But everything in it was essentialWyman deliberated whether to throw away his rations or his blanketThey had taken twenty-one K rations with them and only seven had been eaten so farBut if they chanel vintage crossed the mountain and scouted through the Jap rear they would be gone at least a weekHe couldn't take the chanceWyman withdrew his blanket from the pack, and tossed it a few yards away "Whose blanket is that?" Croft had seen it, and was walking toward them "Mine, Sergeant," Wyman admitted "Go omega pocket watch fetch it and stick it in your pack "I really don't need it," Wyman said softly Croft glared at himNow that Hearn was gone, the discipline was his, and it was not going to be threatenedWith Hearn, sloppy habits had developed which he must cauterizeBesides, waste always offended him"Go get men wallet gucci it, boy, I'm telling you Wyman sighed, stood up, and retrieved the blanketAs he was folding it, Croft softened a trifleHe was pleased at how quickly Wyman had obeyed him"Listen, you're gonna need that blanketYou wake up with a cold ass tonight, and you're gonna be feeling damn glad you got it louis vuitton online th (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 30th, 2010
8:55 pm	chloe white,gucci ladies watch,replica tiffany... chloe white,gucci ladies watch,replica tiffany jewelry,chanel watch j12,tiffany wholesale@@@@@It was taking him an hour to say every word, Scarlett was sureThen she heard the shouting from the field, saw the big O'Hara men running, waving fists and weapons She clawed frantically at the string around her neck, at the pouch of money when it appeared, at its tightly closed neckHer fingers felt the coins, the folded bank notes, and she breathed a chloe white silent prayer of thanksShe was carrying the wages of all the workers at Ballyhara More than fifty poundsNow she was as cool and unhurried as melting ice creamShe lifted the cord from her neck, over her head, and she jingled the pouch in her hand"There's extra for your trouble, you ill-bred cad," she said Her arm was strong and her aim trueThe pouch gucci ladies watch struck the officer in the mouthShillings and pence scattered down the front of his tunic and onto the ground"Clean up the mess you've made," said Scarlett, "and take away that trash you brought with you!" She turned her back on the soldiers"For the love of God, Kathleen," she whispered, "get over in the field and stop the men before there's real trouble replica tiffany jewelry Later Scarlett confronted Old DanielSuppose she hadn't brought the tobacco? Suppose it hadn't come in today? She glared at her uncle, then burst out, "Why didn't you tell me you needed money? I'd have been glad to give it to you "The O'Haras don't take charity," said Daniel"'Charity'? It's not charity when it's your own family, Uncle Daniel Daniel looked chanel watch j12 at her with old, old eyes"What isn't earned by your own hands is charity," he said"We've heard your history, Young Scarlett O'HaraWhen my brother Gerald lost hiswits, why did you not call upon his brothers in Savannah? They're all your own family Scarlett's lips trembledShe hadn't asked or accepted help from anyoneShe had had to carry the burden tiffany wholesale alone (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 29th, 2010
8:54 pm	vintage omega watches,purse louis vuitton,lady... vintage omega watches,purse louis vuitton,lady dior,louis vuitton logo,black and white bags@@@@@Maybe I was naturally antisocialMy personal history supported that theory, I supposedI'd never formed an attachment strong enough to keep me on any planet for more than one life I noticed Robert and Faces Sunward lingering at the classroom door, locked in a discussion that seemed intenseI could vintage omega watches guess the subject “Fire World stories ruffle feathers The Seeker was standing at my elbowThe woman usually announced her approach with the quick tap of her hard shoesI looked down now to see that she was wearing sneakers for once–black, of courseShe was even tinier without the extra inches “It's not my purse louis vuitton favorite subject,” I said in a bland voice“I prefer to have firsthand experience to share “Strong reactions from the class She looked at me expectantly, as if waiting for moreI gathered my notes and turned to put them in my bag “You seemed to react as well I placed my papers in the bag carefully, not lady dior turning “I wondered why you didn't answer the question There was a pause while she waited for me to respond “So… why didn't you answer the question?” I turned around, not concealing the impatience on my face“Because it wasn't pertinent to the lesson, because Robert needs to learn some manners, and louis vuitton logo because it's no one else's business I swung my bag to my shoulder and headed for the doorShe stayed right beside me, rushing to keep up with my longer legsWe walked down the hallway in silenceIt wasn't until we were outside, where the afternoon sun lit the dust motes in the salty air, that she spoke black and white bags ag (Comment on this)
Monday, December 27th, 2010
9:00 pm	omega pocket watch,quilted chanel bag,Gucci Indy... omega pocket watch,quilted chanel bag,Gucci Indy Bag,omega watches prices,chanel earrings logo@@@@@ I didn't think Kamen's sketch would have any effect on the brother, or anyone else; I thought its work was done "If it's any consolation, it could have been a coincidence - he was a hell of a nice guy, but he was also packing a lot of extra poundsAnyone who looked at him could see that "You could be right Although I knew she omega pocket watch wasn't "I'll talk to you soon"Take care of yourself, EddieLock your doors tonight, and set the alarm She broke the connectionOn the other side of the house, the surf was disputing with the nightMy right arm was itchingI thought: If I could get at you, I believe I'd cut you off all over again Partly to stop the damage you can do, quilted chanel bag but mostly just to shut you up But of course it wasn't my gone arm, or the hand which had once lived at the end of it, that was the problem; the problem was the woman-thing in 873 the red robe, using me like some kind of fucked-up Ouija board "What?" Wireman asked"Don't keep us in suspense, muchacho, what?" "Kamen," I said I Gucci Indy Bag thought of all the pictures stored at the Scoto, pictures that were soldThey'd be safe for a little while where they were, but in the end, money talks and bullshit walksThat wasn't even a man-law, it was the motherfucking American way "Come on, Edgar," Jack said"I'll run you to your place, then drive you back here xiv I won't omega watches prices say our trip upstairs to Little Pink was exactly serene (I had the silver candlestick, and carried it at port arms all the time we were inside), but it was uneventfulThe only spirits in the place were the agitated voices of the shellsI put the drawings back in the red picnic basketJack snagged the handles and carried chanel earrings logo it downstai (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 26th, 2010
9:03 pm	white chanel watch,chanel jewelry,replica... white chanel watch,chanel jewelry,replica prada,quilted bag chanel,louis vuitton denim@@@@@The soup would be sent round in a most spiritless manner, wine drank without any smiles or agreeable trifling, and the venison cut up without supplying one pleasant anecdote of any former haunch, or a single entertaining story, about “my friend such a one She must try to find amusement in what was passing at the upper end of the table, and in observing MrRushworth, who was now making his appearance at Mansfield for the first time since the Crawfords’ arrival He had been white chanel watch visiting a friend in the neighbouring county, and that friend having recently had his grounds laid out by an improver, MrRushworth was returned with his head full of the subject, and very eager to be improving his own place in the same way; and though not saying much to the purpose, could talk of nothing else The subject had been already handled in the drawing-room; it was revived in the dining-parlourMiss Bertram’s attention and opinion was evidently his chief aim; and chanel jewelry though her deportment showed rather conscious superiority than any solicitude to oblige him, the mention of Sotherton Court, and the ideas attached to it, gave her a feeling of complacency, which prevented her from being very ungracious “I wish you could see Compton,” said he; “it is the most complete thing! I never saw a place so altered in my lifeI told Smith I did not 46 Mansfield Park know where I wasThe approach now, is one of the finest things in the country: you see replica prada the house in the most surprising mannerI declare, when I got back to Sotherton yesterday, it looked like a prison—quite a dismal old prison “Oh, for shame!” cried Mrs“A prison indeed? Sotherton Court is the noblest old place in the world “It wants improvement, ma’am, beyond anythingI never saw a place that wanted so much improvement in my life; and it is so forlorn that I do not know what can be done with itRushworth should think so at present,” said MrsNorris, with a quilted bag chanel smile; “but depend upon it, Sotherton will have every improvement in time which his heart can desire “I must try to do something with it,” said MrRushworth, “but I do not know whatI hope I shall have some good friend to help me “Your best friend upon such an occasion,” said Miss Bertram calmly, “would be Mr “That is what I was thinking ofAs he has done so well by Smith, I think I had better have him at onceHis terms are five guineas a day “Well, and if they were ten,” cried louis vuitton denim Mr (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 25th, 2010
9:03 pm	chanel bag classic,gucci fashion,ladies omega... chanel bag classic,gucci fashion,ladies omega constellation,chloe white,rolex oyster perpetual day-date@@@@@The patrol had keyed him to the point where he could not bear any more abuse, and he drove himself onward now with the knowledge that if he halted for too long the wrath and ridicule of the platoon would come down upon him But, even with this, he was breakingThere came a point where his legs would no longer functionEven when he stood still they were close to buckling under himToward the end of the afternoon he began to collapseIt was a slow chanel bag classic process, dragging out through a series of pratfalls, a progression of stumbling and sliding and finally of dropping prostrateHe began to tumble every few hundred feet and the men in the platoon waited gratefully while he forced himself slowly to his feet, and staggered on againBut each fall came a little more quickly than the one that had preceded itRoth moved forward almost unconsciously, his legs buckling at every misstepAfter a half hour he could no gucci fashion longer get up without assistance, and each step he took was doubtful, uncertain, like an infant walking alone across a roomHe even fell like an infant, his feet folding under him while he sat blank on his thighs, a little bewildered that he was not still walking In time he began to irritate the platoonCroft would not let them sit down and the enforced wait until Roth was able to walk again annoyed themThey began to wait for Roth to fall and the ladies omega constellation inevitable recurrence of it rasped their sensesTheir anger began to shift from Croft to Roth The mountain was becoming more treacherousFor ten minutes Croft had been leading them along a rocky ledge up the side of a sheer bluff of stone, and the path in places was only a few feet wideAt their right, never more than a yard or two away, was a drop of several hundred feet, and despite themselves they would pitch at times close to the edgeIt roused another fear chloe white in them, and Roth's halts made them impatientThey were anxious to get past the ledge In the middle of this ascent Roth fell down, started to get up, and then sprawled out again when no one helped himThe rock surface of the ledge was hot but he felt comfortable lying against itThe afternoon rain had just begun and he felt it driving into his flesh, cooling the stoneHe wasn't going to get upSomewhere through his numbness another resentment had taken rolex oyster perpetual day-date h (Comment on this)
Friday, December 24th, 2010
8:55 pm	@@@@@O'Hara and I kill her So help me God, @@@@@O'Hara and I kill her So help me God, that's what will happen The room was lit suddenly by a flash of brilliance through skylight and windows, and a heavier torrent of rain slashed against the glass"I'm not going out in that," the midwife howled "Put her in another room, then, but get her out of hereAnd when she's away, Colum, go bring the smithHe doctors animals; a woman can't be that different Colum had the cringing midwife by the upper armLightning scored the sky above, and she screamedHe shook her like a rag"Quiet yourself, womanFitzpatrick with dull hopeless eyes"He'll not come, Rosaleen, no one will come now it's darkHave you forgot what night this is?" MrsFitzpatrick wiped Scarlett's temples and cheeks with a cool damp cloth"If you don't bring him, Colum, I'll do itI've a knife and a pistol in the desk at your houseIt only needs showing him there's more certain things to fear than ghosts Joseph O 'Neill, the blacksmith, crossed himselfHis face glistened with sweatHis black hair was plastered to his head from walking through the storm, but the sweat was fresh "I've doctored a horse once, same as this, but a woman I cannot do such violence to He looked down at Scarlett and shook his head"It's against nature, I cannot There were lamps along the edges of all the sinks, and lightning flashing one jagged bolt after ano (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 23rd, 2010
8:55 pm	@@@@@ I was able to contain my anxiety as I @@@@@ I was able to contain my anxiety as I walked hesitantly to the vacant door frame; we must be just as alone here as we had been all day and all yesterday The shade the dark entry promised drew me forward, trumping my fears with its appealI still listened intently, but my feet moved ahead with swift, sure stepsI darted through the doorway, moving quickly to one side so as to have a wall at my backThis was instinctual, a product of Melanie's scavenging daysI stood frozen there, unnerved by my blindness, waiting for my eyes to adjust The little shack was empty, as we'd known it would beThere were no more signs of occupation inside than outA broken table slanted down from its two good legs in the middle of the room, with one rusted metal chair beside itPatches of concrete showed through big holes in the worn, grimy carpetA kitchenette lined the wall with a rusted sink, a row of cabinets–some doorless–and a waist-high refrigerator that hung open, revealing its moldy black insidesA couch frame sat against the far wall, all the cushions goneStill mounted above the couch, only a little crooked, was a framed print of dogs playing poker Homey,Melanie thought, relieved enough to be sarcastict's got more decor than your apartment I was already moving for the sink Dream on,Melanie added helpfully Of course it would be wasteful to have water running to this secluded place; the souls managed details like that better than to leave such an anomaly behindI still had to twist the ancient knobsOne broke off in my hand, rusted through I turned to the cupboards next, kneeling on the nasty carpet to peek carefully insideI leaned away as I opened the door, afraid I might be disturbing one of the venomous desert animals in its lair The first was empty, backless, so that I could see the wooden slats of the outside wallThe next had no door, but there was a stack of antique newspapers inside, covered with dustI pulled one out, curious, shaking the dirt to the dirtier floor, and read the dat (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 22nd, 2010
9:07 pm	@@@@@He saw an officer coming toward him, heard @@@@@He saw an officer coming toward him, heard him ask Croft, "What platoon is this?" "Intelligence and reconnaissance, sir, we're on beach detail," and then the instructions to wait over by a grove of coconut trees near the beachMartinez fell into line, and stumbled along behind Red, as the platoon walked heavily through the soft sandHe was feeling nothing at all except a conviction that his judgment had been delayed The platoon marched about two hundred yards and then halted at the coconut groveIt was hot already, and most of the men threw off their packs and sprawled in the sandThere had been men here before themUnits of the first wave had assembled nearby, for the flat caked sand was trodden by many feet, and there was the inevitable minor refuse of empty cigarette packs and a discarded ration or twoBut now these men were inland, moving somewhere through the jungle, and there was hardly anyone in sightThey could see for a distance of about two hundred yards in either direction before the beach curved out of view, and it was all quiet, relatively emptyAround either bend there might be a great deal of activity, but they could not tell thisIt was still too early for the supplies to be brought in, and all the troops that had landed with them had been quickly dispersedOver a hundred yards away to their right, the Navy had set up a command post which consisted merely of an officer at a small folding desk, and a jeep parked in the defilade where the jungle met the beachTo their left, just around the bend an eighth of a mile away, the Task Force Headquarters was beginning to functionA few orderlies were digging foxholes for the General's staff, and two men were staggering down the beach in the opposite direction, unwinding an eighty-pound reel of telephone wireA jeep motored by in the firm wet sand near the water's edge and disappeared beyond the Navy's CPThe landing boats which had beached near the colored pennants on the other side of Task Force Headquarters had backed off by now and were cruising out toward the invasion fleetThe water looked very blue and the ships seemed to quiver a little in the mid-morning hazeOccasionally one of the destroyers would fire a volley or two, and half a minute later the men would hear the soft whisper of the shell as it arched overhead into the jungleOnce in a while a machine gun would start racketing in the jungle, and might be answered soon after with the shrill riveting sound of a Japanese light automatic Sergeant Brown looked at the coconut trees which were shorn at the top from the shellingFarther down, another grove had remained untouched, and he shook his headPlenty of men could have lived through that bombardment, he told himself"This ain't such a bad shelling, compared to what they did to Motome," he said He turned over on his stomach in the sand, and lit a cigarette"The beach stinks already," he announ (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 19th, 2010
9:04 pm	hermes kelly bag,ladies gucci watch,chanel... hermes kelly bag,ladies gucci watch,chanel knockoff,louis vuitton travel,chanel watch j12@@@@@Scarlett looked up at him, unbelieving"Move over," he said gently"Let me get near Mammy Scarlett stood, feeling the nearness of him, the bigness, the strength, the maleness, and her knees were weakRhett pushed past her and knelt by hermes kelly bag MammyEverything was going to be all right Scarlett knelt beside him, her shoulder touching his arm, and she was happy in the midst of her heartbreak about MammyHe came, Rhett's hereWhat a fool I was to give up hope like that"I wants ladies gucci watch you to do something for me," Mammy was sayingHer voice sounded strong, as if she had saved her strength for this momentHer breathing was shallow and fast, almost panting"Anything, Mammy," Rhett said"I'll do anything you want "Bury chanel knockoff me in my fine red silk petticoat what you gived me I know that Lune got her eye on itScarlett was shockedLaughter at a deathbedThen she realized that Mammy was laughing, too, without soundRhett put his hand on his shirt "I swear to you louis vuitton travel that Lune won't even get a look at it, MammyI'll make sure it goes with you to Heaven Mammy's hand reached for him, gesturing his ear closer to her lips"You take care of Miss Scarlett," she said"She needs caring, and I can't do no chanel watch j12 mo (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 18th, 2010
9:02 pm	omega quartz,gucci backpack,gucci messenger... omega quartz,gucci backpack,gucci messenger bag,cartier santos 100,vintage omega watches@@@@@“They’ll be sealed and carted off out of your reach “Well, we’re working on that, MrPark Avenue, ManhattanSay—just for laughs—say we got ’emWhat are they worth to you?” The guest permitted himself a thin aristocratic smile“Detroit?” he replied “Va bene! I like omega quartz you, you got a sense of humor As abruptly as he had grinned, the mafioso became serious, even ugly“The five mill still holds for this Bourne-Webb character, right?” “With a proviso “I don’t like provisos, MrLawyer, I don’t like them at all “We can go elsewhereYou’re gucci backpack not the only game in town Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM 211 “Let me explain something to you, Signor AvvocatoIn a lot of ways, we—all of we—are the only game in townWe don’t mess with other families’ hits, you know what I mean? Our councils have decided gucci messenger bag hits are too personal; it makes for bad blood “Will you listen to the proviso? I don’t think you’ll be offended “I wish you’d use another word—” “Go ahead “There’ll be a two-million-dollar bonus because we insist you include Webb’s wife and his government friend cartier santos 100 ConklinPark Avenue, ManhattanNow to the rest of our business “I want to talk about the Jew “We’ll get to him—” “Now “Please don’t give orders to me,” said the attorney from one of Wall Street’s most prestigious firms“You’re really not in a position to do that, vintage omega watches wop (Comment on this)
Friday, December 17th, 2010
9:02 pm	@@@@@It was as sudden and violent as my fits of @@@@@It was as sudden and violent as my fits of rageIf the smoke detectors had gone off downstairs, announcing the house was on fire, I would have paid no attentionI stripped the cellophane from a brand-new brush, dipped black, and began to paint As with the picture I'd called The End of the Game, I don't remember much about the actual creation of Friends with BenefitsAll I know is it happened in a violent explosion, and sunsets had nothing to do with itIt was mostly black and blue, the color of bruises, and when it was done, my left arm ached from the exerciseMy hand was splattered with paint all the way to the wrist The finished canvas reminded me a little of those noir paperback covers I used to see back when I was a kid, the ones that always featured some roundheels dame headed for hellOnly on the paperback covers, the dame was usually blond and twenty-twoishIn my picture, she had dark hair 206 and looked on the plus side of fortyThis dame was my ex-wife She was sitting on a rumpled bed, wearing nothing but a pair of blue pantiesThe strap of a matching bra trailed across one legHer head was slightly bent, but there was no mistaking her features; I had caught her BRILLIANTLY in just a few harsh strokes of black that were almost like Chinese ideogramsOn the slope of one breast was the picture's only real spot of brightness: a rose tattooI wondered when she'd gotten it, and why Pam wearing ink seemed as unlikely to me as Pam racing a dirt-bike at Mission Hill, but I had no doubt whatever that it was true; it was just a fact, like Carson Jones's Torii Hunter tee-shirt There were also two men in the picture, both naked One stood at the window, half-turnedHe had a perfectly typical body for a white middle-class man of fifty or so, one I imagined you could see in any Gold's Gym changing room: poochy stomach, flat little no-cheeks ass, moderate man-titsHis face was intelligent and well-bredOn that face now was a melancholy she's-almost-gone lookA nothing-will-change-it lookThis was Max from 207 Palm DesertHe might as well have been wearing a sign around his neck (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 11th, 2010
9:33 pm	@@@@@He eased back as soon as my arms went limp, @@@@@He eased back as soon as my arms went limp, but kept his face next to mine, the tip of his nose touching the tip of mine I dropped my arms, and he took a deep breathSlowly, he loosened both his hands and then placed them lightly on my shoulders “She's not here,” I whispered, still breathing in gasps “Melanie?” “I can't hear her! Ian, how can I go back in to Jamie? He'll know that I'm lying! How can I tell him that I've lost his sisternow? Ian, he's sick! I can't tell him that! I'll upset him, make it harder for him to get wellI –” Ian's fingers pressed against my lipsLet's think about thisWhen was the last time you heard her?” “Oh, Ian! It was right after I saw… in the hospitalAnd she tried to defend them… and I screamed at her… and I–I made her go away! And I haven't heard her sinceI can't find her!” “Shh,” he said againNow, what do you really want? I know you don't want to upset Jamie, but he's going to be fine regardlessSo, consider–would it be better, just for you, if –” “No! I can't erase Melanie! I can'tThat would be wrong! That would make me a monster, too!” “Okay, okay! OkaySo we have to find her?” I nodded urgently He took another deep breath“Then you need to… really be overwhelmed, don't you?” “I don't know what you mean I was afraid I did, though Kissing Ian was one thing–even a pleasant thing, maybe, if I wasn't so racked with worry–but anything more… elaborate… Could I? Mel would be furious if I used her body that wayWas that what I had to do to find her? But what about Ian? It was so grossly unfair to him “I'll be right back,” Ian promised” He pressed me against the wall for emphasis and then ducked back out into the hallwayI wanted to follow him, to see what he was doing and where he was going We had to talk about this; I had to think it throughJamie was waiting for me, with questions that I couldn't answer with liesNo, he wasn't waiting for me; he was waiting for Mela (Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2010
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Tuesday, December 7th, 2010
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Monday, December 6th, 2010
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Saturday, December 4th, 2010
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